hidup aku tenang tanpa kacau

No, I can't take one more step towards you

‘Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive

And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive

And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

‘Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

a lovely song called jar of hearts

by christina perri

in the year 2010

aku nak kau tahu aku masih punya perasaan yang indah

it started out as a feeling

which then grew into a hope

which then turned into a quiet thought

which then turned into a quiet word

and then that word grew louder and louder

till it was a battle cry

i'll come back when you call me

no need to say goodbye

just because everything's changing

doesn't mean it's never been this way before

all you can do is try to know who your friends are

as you head off to the war

pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light

you'll come back when it's over

no need to say goodbye

you'll come back when it's over

no need to say goodbye

now we're back to the beginning

it's just a feeling and no one knows yet

but just because they can't feel it, too

doesn't means that you have to forget

let your memories grow stronger and stronger

till they're before your eyes

you'll come back when they call you

no need to say goodbye

you'll come back when they call you

no need to say goodbye

a lovely song called the call

by regina spektor

from the ost chronicles of narnia : prince caspian

in the year 2008

wah!!!!!

it's been a long week since i post the last entry.


entri kali ini agak membosankan. entri yang penat.

banyak keje. banyak. banyak. and that means a lot! aku buat sektor perniagaan. dah lama tak buat. since part 4 diploma dolu. siyes blurr.. kekuatan 3 anggota sememangnya tak mencukupi dari pandangan mata kasar. tapi akhirnya kami berjaya siapkan semua yang dikehendaki. bagus tak bagus belakang kira sebab dah penat kan. huh~ selesai satu keje.


main futsal. inter-part. masa diploma, pernah menang. tapi jarang ada yang menghargai. dari zaman abstrak jingga hingga ke geng gagak hitam. dari sekurus kurus manusia hingga la ke secomel comel manusia. skuad futsal yang satu ni memang tak pernah tukar player. Jadi aku iktiraf ini sebagai hebat~~



Last week present concept plan... percubaan pertama yang membawa sinar. lulus. credit kepada kawan yang membantu mengeluarkan idea. aku pakai sikit je keh! lebih2 aku punya!! so, merangkak membuat schematic plan. beratur lagi dua tiga assignment. masa sekolah sibuk na masuk universiti sebab ta nak buat homework. da masuk U still kene buat assignment. dah tu la ni sebok fikir mahu kerja. nanti dah kerja ade lagi project nak kena handle.


sama je. bolak balik. and that's what life is. tapi aku gembira walopon susah sket. sebab aku ade family yang setia dengan aku, 'dia' pown wat masa ni setia agy dengan aku serta kawan-kawan yang paling setia yang tak jemu support aku dari segi moral, finance dan yang sewaktu dengannya.




penat. tapi belum sudah.




khamis 11032010. aku dan rakan-rakan yang kurang duit membantu lecturer buat kerja sambilan. survey update pelan land use. sitenye berdekatan umah aku. masyuk~ jangan tanye berapa tapi cukup la nak tanggung idup aku seminggu. penat2 seronok. aku suka ayat ni. hehe~ keje senang dah biasa buat. bak kata supervisor "planner tak reti baca pelan baik mati je" begitu kasar. tapi kami setuju.


ingat mahu saving lalu makan di rumah. tapi family balik kampung. nak urut kaki ayah sakit. so, terpaksa lah aku makan kat kedai. terus balik shah alam.


malamnye. abang text "aku da transfer duit tambang ko nak gi Singapore" dan aku terdiam waktu tu. dalam poket ade 50. abang tambah 3rat. weyhh!! if aku kuarkan skang CONFIRM abes punya~ so i decided untuk menyengkekkan diri sekejap. betul-betul sekejap.


sabtu aku kuarkan duit. tengok V3 samseng jalanan katenye. dengan bff pinky. aku kuarkan sumenya.. so at that time aku banyak duit la kan. dan seperti yang dijangka, aku dah terlajak pakai 50 dari 3 rat tersebut. bila tersedar, buat2 tak panik.


petang aku tanya khabar pada ayah. "sihat ke tu.. jangan la wat keje berat-berat sangat nanti sakit lagi kaki tu.." aku tak leh bila ahli keluarga sakit. aku tak senang. terutama mama. "ayah ok je. ayah tengok indon buat keje je petang ni ayah tak angkat barang pown" katenye. "kang ayah masuk duit dekat kakak" DAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rezeki melimpah ruah..


dapat cover balik duit tersebut. sekarang menunggu duit survey update pelan land use. harap dapat segera. dengan duit kerja part time masa cuti december lalu. huh~


sekarang tak berapa bz. kejap lagi mahu bantu bff badut misai menyiapkan tugas grouping english kami. petang ada exam nihon-go dan english language. sangat tidak bagus untuk minda aku kala ini.


sangat tidak ada mood. mahu bangun dan buat kerja~~~



huh~



xde mood. ta yah la wat. kan?